:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Saturday, March 27, 2004 ::

"it's sometimes argued that there's no real progress; that a civilization that kills multitudes in mass warfare, that pollutes the land and oceans with even larger quantity of debris, that destroys the dignity of individuals by subjecting them to a forced mechanized existence can hardly be called an advance over the simpler hunting and gathering and agricultural existence of prehistoric times."
~Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintanence

currently: sitting at this shitty computer at work, bored because its completely dead and theres nothing to do.

tonight: The Darkness at the Vic. Then some hot tub action. nice.

tomorrow: will be in the ville at my parents house. come stop by!

It's so hard when contemplated in advance, and so easy when you do it.
stellar lady:: Anonymous 2:08 PM [+] ::
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Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

GO SEE THIS MOVIE!

its fucking amaZing. one of the best movies i've seen in a long, long time. purely brilliant.
stellar lady:: Anonymous 12:01 PM [+] ::
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millions of people protested today against an unjust war that seems to be going nowhere....yet in this land of democracy where every person is supposed to have a voice, it as though their pleas for a better world were silenced. once again countries around the world showed their dissaproval of the inhumanity that is occurring in the country we invaded. perhaps if we got a true picture of what is really happening in that country across the world, we might think twice about having our president in power. spain has pulled out of the efforts (what the hell does efforts mean anyway?, more like invasion) in Iraq because finally they have a leader who is willing to listen to them...considering 90% of the spanish people were against the war in the first place. hopefully, instead of visiting florida for the hundreth time to get votes, our president will acknowledge that the people of his country do not support what our country is doing elsewhere.

you ignore us today, we will ignore you on election day. consider it done.

stellar lady:: naughti 8:54 PM [+] ::
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i've become accustomed to lying to myself...it's become so easy that i hardly recognize that i'm doing it....here are some of the recent lies that i've induldged myself in:

(1) i enjoy the company of random individuals at school who do nothing but tell stories about their humorous lives without caring about what everyone else has going on
(2) i'm not mad at those individuals who haven't called me in months...they're just busy
(3) i'm no longer in love with him
(4) i believe all this studying is making me smarter
(5) i want to listen to my roomate's michael jackson cd one more time
(6) i understand my parent's reasons for being so protective of me
(7) i don't really want to go to california for graduate school
(8) i don't need coffee
(9) being single builds character
(10) i'm not wasting time

you want me to heal you, yet it burns when my fingers touch your skin.


stellar lady:: naughti 2:48 PM [+] ::
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why am i inside at 10 pm and not out drinking green beer on St. Patty's day?

1) i am not 21 therefore i cannot enter bloomington-normal bars.
2) i have a presentation to give at 8 AM tomorrow
3) i have my second interview for a summer internship at State Farm tomorrow at 10 am. there would not be any time in between to nap or recover.

so there ya go. and here i am. with some food for thought...

"but to tear down a factory or to revolt against a government because it is a system is to attack effects rather than causes; and as long as the attack is upon effects only, no change is possible. the true system, the real system, is our present construction of systematic thought itself, rationality itself, and if a facory is torn down but the rationality which produced it is left standing, then that rationality will simply produce another factory. if a revolution destroys a systematic government, but the systematic pattern of thought that produced that government are left intact, then those patterns will repeat themselves in the succeeding government. there's so much talk about the system. and so little understanding."
~from Zen and The Art of Motorcycle Maintanence

currently listening to: Sexy Boys; Air

there's kind of a glaring inconsistency here, that is almost too obvious to dwell on.
stellar lady:: Anonymous 9:58 PM [+] ::
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for real now fuckers....get off of friendster and naseeb.com and go vote!!! (illinois primaries)

currently: watching myself waste away...

quote of the mf-ing day come from Brandon Boyd (aka my boyfriend): "It's almost comical, just how blase it's become to start a war under one particular premise, then have that premise be thrown out publicly. And everyone is like 'Ah, whatever-people make mistakes.' Uhhhh, hello? Kind of amazing. I wasn't that into our last President, either, but he almost got thrown out of office just for having his pee-pee played with. But what's happening now, the word 'impeachment' hasn't even come up on CNN..."


stellar lady:: naughti 6:02 PM [+] ::
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Quote of the Day:

"The Arc was made by amateurs and the Titanic was made by experts."
~

where did my spring break go?

currently reading: Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintanence
music on the mind: The Beatles; For No One

get off friendster. go vote.
stellar lady:: Anonymous 5:19 PM [+] ::
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This makes me sick to my stomach. the atocha metro stop. randi and i looking for our friend lauren one night before going out. the seven floors of dance club Kapital. making drunk phone calls to the states at 5:30 in the morning as we waited for the metro to open at six AM. walking to El Museo de Arte Reina Sofia only to discover that it's closed on tues. walking back to the atocha metro stop, surveying 2 euro cd's while random spanish guys make poor attempts at trying to pick us up in broken english...

why do people think that violence is the only way to get their point across? i mean, honestly. like anyone is going to listen to your point of view and what you have to say when you're blowing people up. terrorism is fucking bullshit. there are too many fuckin ignorant assholes out there. and ignorance is not bliss. ignorance leads to an elitist, ethnocentric group of jackasses who get off on the death of innocent people; believing that this method of persuasion is actually the most concise way in achieving their political goals. its bullshit. ignorance = death. on every level.

it's times like these when i honestly believe that the human race is fucked. royally.
stellar lady:: Anonymous 10:33 AM [+] ::
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Got a big gun?


by the way Amy Goodman from Democracy Now! is incredible in so many ways....to find out where you can hear her go to democracynow.org


stellar lady:: naughti 10:20 PM [+] ::
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i wish i was here.

who's with me?
stellar lady:: Anonymous 9:12 PM [+] ::
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midterms.

got a gun?
stellar lady:: Anonymous 10:42 PM [+] ::
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