:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Thursday, January 15, 2004 ::

i'm not quite ready for bed yet. nyquil should be kickin in soon. which is good. it will get me safely through to my 8 oclock class tomorrow. the creaters of nyquil will be thanked in my graduation speech. cause thank god, i will be graduating in four years. 99 percent positive.

so for the first time ever i am really pumped about my classes this semester. now that i'm into my major, going to these classes no longer seems like a drag or a hassel. i'm excited to go and get my learn on. the only negative to my semester may prove to be a big one though. my night class. wednesdays from 5:30 to 8:20. what is the major thing i learned about myself today? I HAVE THE ATTENTION SPAN OF AN ANT. good god, i don't know how i'm going to do it. AND it's all in spanish. which requires twice the amount of effor to comprehend and absorb information. by the time it was 6:10 i was already bouncing in my seat and off in LaLa land. plus the fact that i have 3 people i went to spain with and other good friends in that class; does not make it conducive to paying attention. and my profesora whom i had last semester ALWAYS keeps you the full time. which just blows. i mean come on, it was the first day. atleast a half hour early or some shit. but no. she went the whole time. actually five minutes over. plus the fact i hadn't eaten all day cuz i went from work to class to work to class did not help the situation any.

also, the fact that the class is one day a week will definitely propel my forgetfullness in getting the readings and assignments done. granted i have a week, but keeping up with my other four classes and work and all the other things i make time for makes it kind of hard. i have to stop being such a space cadet. aren't there pills that improve memory? or certain types of food? if anyone knows, send that shit my way.

but ok, i'm really not complaining. i just had to get that tidbit off my chest. i am very excited for this semester. i'll be learning some cool shit. i rearranged my room. i'm totally stoked about it. it's much more efficient space wise and all that. plus it just looks cooler. i gotta rearrange the decorations and vacuum and put shit away...but that will all come in due time.

it's good to see all my central IL peeps again. this town of blormal isnt at all bad as i sometimes make it out to be. there are many good times to be had here with some really cool people. you just have to sift out the shit, ya know? your situation is all that you make of it. it's a state of mind. enough said.

so yes. all is well. i'm working a ton. i will not be working at the house of funk for washburns needs me hardcore and they gave me a raise. which is good. but. i'm wondering if it might get a bit much. at the moment; during the day if i'm not in class, i'm there. it's kinda draining. i suppose i'll just see how it plays out.

ok, and i would just like to make an honorable mention that there is a special someone in my life. and that i'm really happy. and i don't want to say anything more because i don't want to jinx anything. not that i'm superstitious. but yes. all signs say move ahead. choose anew. please evolve. take flight. off i go...

wow, i didnt expect this to turn into such a long post. but i must get my ass in bed so i can wake up and become more of a smart fucker than i already am. ahhh haha. i love it.

miss you stella ladies. nat...hope everyting is going smoothe and nik; good luck with the move in and the new semester...i'll talk to yall lates.

currently reading: The Best American Non Required Reading
in the cdplayer clock radio: Joss Stone

Decreased rigidity,
Increased creativity,
Less compulsion,
More sense of choice.
stellar lady:: Anonymous 1:45 AM [+] ::
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