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:: Monday, September 15, 2003 ::
as sabrina has said...
i make a lot of mistakes
i tell my doubts
i laugh with my worries
i am frightened by the truth but i need it like my own blood.
this past week felt so out of control. and it really was. lots of fears. not good a loving. not good looking. i'm not good at making stuff happen. i'm not good at articulating how i feel...not good at school..not good at taking care what i love. trying to measure up.
sometimes i feel really in the spotlight and i'm not acting right.
sometimes i feel like i am mean to people who love me.
sometimes i surge with power.
sometiems i am unable to buckle my own euphoria.
sometimes i feel really terrible.
sometimes i want to go home.
sometimes i dont say what i feel.
sometimes i regret what i did..
sometimes i wish i was six.
i am feeling better though, sometimes i forget that i am in control of my life. just need to grab it by the lapels. so i guess i'll be pretty content. just never sure...
quote to contemplate: "Desire is the root of all human suffering."
music on the mind: The Postal Service
stellar lady:: Anonymous 1:19 AM [+] ::
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