:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Wednesday, May 28, 2003 ::

money sucks....i feel ya sam. i'm going to cali at the end of june....but now i have to decided if i want to take a painting class or go to north carolina cuz i don't have the money for both...but really i should be saving up for my apt. so, i'm screwed in all directions...cuz any way you look at it i'm broke.


stellar lady:: naughti 2:06 PM [+] ::
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Miró believed that everything in the cosmos is linked; colors, sky, stars, love, time, music, dogs, men, women, dirt, and the void. he said "for me simplicity is freedom."
stellar lady:: Anonymous 5:13 AM [+] ::
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yeah, this shit sucks too...why is the value of the american dollar on a downward spiral? let me tell ya, i´ve been working myself into the negatives for over the past month and the fucking exchange rate isnt helping my situation any...its eating up what very little dinero i have left...you would think since the "war" is "over" and since bush is in control of the oil fields; with all this money is coming in now, the value of the dollar would be rocking the currency chart. but let me tell ya, its not. can someone please explain to me this invisible concept of the fluctuating exchange rate, why the dollar continues to plummet and where the government is spending our money?

time to get the hell outta dodge...

él próximo estación: Barcelona
stellar lady:: Anonymous 5:49 AM [+] ::
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i'm sick of this shit (yeah i'm swearing so listen up)......who the hell do we think we are?....invading whatever country we feel like destroying. next on the list...Iran. seriously, who are we to say that their form of government is bad and that we need in infiltrate our own kind of false "democracy" upon them? we haven't even finished what we started in afghanistan or iraq and here we go again. and yet there are people who support this shit without any question. ask yourself what the hell came out of invading iraq? oh yeah that's right...one of our most prestigious leaders is pumping oil right into his bank account. yeah keep on supporting the greed this country is so familiar with, without even so much as doing your research.


stellar lady:: naughti 6:04 PM [+] ::
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movie to see: the invisible circus

menos un mes...
stellar lady:: Anonymous 9:38 AM [+] ::
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sabrina always says it best...

"My oh my. Well, here we are... Have you been feeling this way too?...Whoosh, bang, ahhh! Living! Everything is changing! Trying to digest it all!...
I am one of those people who really likes a "new plan." A fresh start. Change for the sake of change....It's fine, but it makes for a lot of shlepping ~ I have realized I could end up spending half my awake life moving and changing endings, beginnings, over and over... :) ...
I have a lot going on and my mind feels cramped. I need a file cabinet for my brain...More than ever, I believe we must slow down and remember all the reasons why we are working so hard to make our life "happen." This is the time to see the wild roses growing along our over grown paths. We must remember."


The quote of the day: "A worried man can't love."
music on the brain: U2
stellar lady:: Anonymous 1:56 PM [+] ::
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hell yeah....

por el amor del dios....it turns out that my scholarship money isnt going to be cut! let me explain...i was under the impression that my scholarship was going to be cut because i was no longer living in the dorms....well, as it turns out, that information is incorrect...::major sigh of relief:: so i still have all my scholarship money...but i will probably still keep one of my loans to pay off el mucho deudo que tengo ahora...hay dios, gasté much por mi tarjeta de credito estes dias segundas pasadas...no pasa nada...a ver, creo que algunas de estes dias voy a escribir un blog en total español....lo divirtirá. ¿vale?

pues, un poco menos estrés con el dinero....it makes me so happy...everything is going good here...had a few margaritas this evening...feeling pretty groovy...ahora, gotsta do some tarea...

el punto final: honestly...ANYONE...i dont care if i dont know you or not....send me mail! por favor! i love the emails but sometimes handwritten letters are a lot more fun...i have a little over a month here(oh no, only a month ::sigh::)...so it will be here in time...send fanmail to....

Sam ________(if you know the blank, fill it in)
C/ Tenerife 47
1ºA
Madrid, Spain 28039

gratsi todos

Saber que se puede, querer que se pueda
Quitarse los miedos, sacarlos afuera
pintarse la cara color esperanza
tentar al futuro con el corazón
---Diego Torres

caio
stellar lady:: Anonymous 2:43 PM [+] ::
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why is city-life so expensive???? and why is apartment shopping so hard??? i'm tired; can't someone do the job for me?


stellar lady:: naughti 8:58 PM [+] ::
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RIP my old cat streaker....he passed away last night...the best, most well behaved cat ever...he was 18...and he was spoiled rotten...we should all live more like cats...just be no pasa nada about everything...just chill and live life.

word
stellar lady:: Anonymous 1:41 PM [+] ::
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woo wooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


stellar lady:: naughti 9:04 PM [+] ::
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yeaaaaaaya! congratulations to my nik! im sooo proud of you...keep us posted on your decesion...even if you move halfway across the country, we will be behind you all the way...

spain is treating me quite well...cant believe i only have a month and a half to go....it makes me sad but im pretty sure ill be returning...this past weekend i went to toledo....a beautiful city with an plethora of history...and yesterday was Adrians first communion...(thats carmen and miguel angels son)...thats a huuuuuge deal...after church we had a three hour lunch with a ton of great food and a lot of liquor...i absolutely love my host family....they make me feel right at home...everything else is grooving along...school is good...it doesnt require nearly as much work as the u.s. ....the differences are pretty unreal...this week we have thurs and fri off of school....el dia de San Isidro....partying on the street all week and weekend long...estoy lista....pues, todo para ahora....un beso

something to think about: beLIEve

i saw a guy in toledo wearing a shirt with this on the front...funny how languages work....
venga, hasta luego..
stellar lady:: Anonymous 6:10 AM [+] ::
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early mornin freestyle....even though it's not that early

i woke up with rhymes in my head
i had to share a word or two
my prescribed knowledge to be fed
to the ignorant, the thristy, the scapegoats, the stupid
i'll shoot up your brains, your veins
with verses that can leave a stain
on your new white shirt
your eyes are clouded, blinded
artistically covered in america's dirt
you can't find it
the images that were in your dreams
because truth has abandoned you
left a note on your table; stole all your money
before you could live out this fable
welcome to life the say
i'd rather live in my sleep
life's ugliness penetrates way too deep

i don't know what that was....just came out....but i'm done with school and it feels good.....i'll have to say even though this week was crazy...it was a lot of fun. junior year...man where has the time gone???!


stellar lady:: naughti 12:36 PM [+] ::
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hey lush, have fun. its the weekend.
stellar lady:: Anonymous 11:56 AM [+] ::
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I don't want to be seen as a pretty thing
'Cause it's the pretty things that we're always breaking...
stellar lady:: Anonymous 5:44 AM [+] ::
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two blogs in a row...what's going on ladies?? two more days and i'm done........fo' shizzle!!!
stellar lady:: naughti 10:11 PM [+] ::
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