:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Monday, December 30, 2002 ::

Very interesting story. i find myself with an overwhelming preocupation/fascination with psychology. the interest has always been there; it is just more prevalent/blatant right now. i'm reading the book The Road Less Travelled. go buy it. its brilliant.

i have had too many days off of work. ok, this is only my third day off, but i've come to the conclusion that thats too much. i NEED to work. you may think i am crazy; for with all this free time i can do whatever activities i please. but i've come to the conclusion that things dont operate that way. when you have this unlimited amount of time given to you, in which you may do what you please; things dont get accomplished. you put things off, "i'll do it in an hour" or "oh its so late i'll just wake up early and do it tomorrow". but the fact is, in an hour you say the same thing and you inevitably dont get up early the next day you then find yourself in a routine that is both comfortable and limiting, losing your dreams to protect your days...or some shit like that; i dont remember how the quote goes. but basically when i work; i am able to ration my time and accomplish the things i want to accomplish. This extra time makes me lazy. i sicken myself sometimes.

ok, i think i've bored you guys enough with my half-thoughts and my incomplete philosophies. but dont you worry; one day i'll write a book. and then this will all make sense. alright, i'm off to waste my time in some more exciting ways.

and your pills make me dizzy forgetting my body
i watch as it walks away
and I just keep drinking the poison and smoking the cartons
a pack and a half a day
stellar lady:: Anonymous 11:48 AM [+] ::
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