:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Wednesday, November 06, 2002 ::

What happens to a dream deferred?

this inability to fall asleep at nite is becoming a common occurrence. not a good thing. its a battle; trying to resist the urge to look at the clock. because once you do, you realize how long you've just been lying there, awake, and that the amount of actual sleep that will be acquired is dwindling as each thought passes. so you roll around, switch positions, realize that you are either a) too hot or b) too cold, and remind yourself to not to look at the clock. its an addictive game which ends with you inevitably; looking at the clock. you then immediately calculate how many hours until you have to get up and realize you've spent the past hours gaining no sleep and accomplishing no work. had you known that this would have been a sleepless nite; you would have spent it actually being productive instead fooling youself to believe that sleep would have come and graced you with its presence. you spend the next day lethargic, welcoming any moment to close your eyelids, wondering what you problem was last nite, cuz you could sure as hell use some shut eye now. insomnia; its another one of life's vicious cycles.

i...

1. Have to get up in about 2 hours
2. have a spanish test at 12
3. have a presentation at 1
4. will be able to acquire my lost hours of sleep starting at 2; its my day off
5. am just composing a temporary waste of time.

maybe if i hadnt given in; i would be walking through the air of those who sleep. but the most beautiful word in the american language is a concept which continues to boggle my mind.

and what is the most beautiful word in the american language, my friends?

Resist

stellar lady:: Anonymous 4:17 AM [+] ::
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