:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Thursday, August 15, 2002 ::

Caffeine and Nicotine

ahhh....its running through my veins again...i'm going to be wired for the rest of the nite. it wasnt the smartest idea on my part but hey, there is no right or wrong, just the consequence of your actions.

and so we're at the edge again...this summer flew by...at some points i never thought it would end but now i find myself leaving it one more time...this summer definitely ruled. for the mostpart, i accomplished everything i had planned out..except for a few minor things...such as painting(well get to that tho, right nat?) and reading(though the lack of books read has a lot to do with my increasingly prevelant symptoms of ADD). but hey, i've got all the time in the world, right?

lalala...

today, like every other day, we wake up empty and frightened.
dont open the door to the study and begin reading.
take down a musical instrument.
~
out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field.
i'll meet you there.
~
when the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
ideas, language, even the phrase each other
doesnt make sense.
~
the breeze at dawn has secrets to tell.
dont go back to sleep.
you must ask for what you really want.
dont go back to sleep.
people are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
the door is round and open.
dont go back to sleep.
~rumi

i would write more but ADD is kicking in and i dont have the patience right now...gotta start packing, shit.

hours till moving back to ISU: approximately 35

in the cd player: Taking Back Sunday

left my sweet soul
beneath the bedclothes.
i'm not coming down.
walls have ears,
but no one hears,
when nobodys around.


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