:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Saturday, July 27, 2002 ::

i'll second that emotion...

nik hun, i feel ya. i was thinkin a lot today about where my summer went, as i am less than three weeks away from movin back down to school. and i cant quite recall. the majority of its a blur, and tho i can say its been groovy, i cant say that i wasnt a slave to the routine passing of monotonous days. out of routine,
we become comfortable and against change; afraid to try new things. but we must realize that; if you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always got. remember to take time for yourself nik, and never forget what it is you really want. time to break out of the mold. you can start over and walk into a new life at any moment.

so the summer has ruled and i have spent it in the company of wonderous people. but i shall reminisce at a later date; i'm going to live in the present, as i do have a few short weeks left to enjoy.

update: cristine's mother did not agree with my solution, hence; she will not be living in the city.....there's a lot more to the story but i've just exhausted it so much in my head that i cant reitterate anymore. there are so many more problems that are goin to come about because she has to live at home. i feel that it is a control thing with her mother, as it is with many parents. they just dont want to let go. i dont unerstand it, cant they see that in the end, their children will resent them? cristine already resents her mother. i fear their relationship will only disintergrate even more. there has to be some understanding and respect occurring in a parent-child relationship. overdominance on either end is only an ingredient for conflict and destruction.
but maybe this is the way things are suppose to happen, or maybe, as cristine says, 'lifes just a bitch'.

well, as i promised to write more positive things i will say this; i adore my parents. they restore my battered faith concerning love and relationships, proving that a marriage is not only something you work for, but something to be enjoyed. my father surprised my mother this morning with paul mccartney tickets for his show in september at the united center. i cant tell you how awesome it felt to see her get so excited, and see the twinkle in my dads eye seeing her so happy. i love them to death. they give my faith in everything that lies uncertain and unanswered.

book about to finish: bridget jones; the edge of reason

musica: a peak you can reach by badly drawn boy

well ladies and gents, another summer nite passes by.
dont forget; in daylight, all is as it is.
stellar lady:: Anonymous 9:00 PM [+] ::
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