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:: Tuesday, July 23, 2002 ::
damn emotional fuckwittage
i'm still having trouble deciphering how much to give in to love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. i'm searching for the ability to turn my emotions off. this seems to be the only way to safely keep my sanity. its not the way i want to live in love, but at this point involving myself in a situation which would, in retrospect, be considered a self-inflicted wound, is not something i can bear to put myself through right now.
keeping myself emotionally removed is the only choice available. i dont have time, and i wont especially when school begins, to be plagued by the drama of it all. making the decision for him and cutting myself off will save us both some time. i dont want to be caught up in any games. fuck that shit. i refuse to put myself in that situation. i'm choosing for you. i give up.
cuz then again, its just an everyday thing.
stellar lady:: Anonymous 1:30 AM [+] ::
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