:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Thursday, November 11, 2004 ::

i'm tired of being tethered to this college town.
normal.
what is normal these days?
i'm tired of school.
i want my life back.
i want to be in chicago.
i want to go on adventures daily.
fearing the corporate world...
can i really sit behind a desk all day?
in the end, do you get what you've been working for?
i need some more spice...
...more refreshing people in my day-to-day bump and grind.
the human race can kind of be disappointing sometimes.
people meet all the time and they might as well be wallpaper to eachother.
i am grateful for the amazing people in my life.
i know now more than ever that they are few and far between.
i want to go back to europe.
i want to be healthy again.
i feel as though i've been sick this entire semester.
i seem to be mastering the "I" statements, no?
feeling nauseous.
that is a hard word to spell.
always tired...
always having "a case of the mondays"
normal makes me feel kinda crazy;
the curse of the ill-defined.
this internal sense of disaster.
i feel like i'm not really here at all.
crawling out of my skin; unglued.
why do i feel like my head is going to blow off?
i wish there were rules for stuff like this.
love is one of the riskiest things in the world.
it scares the shit out of me sometimes.
does love accomodate to whatever shape is required?
bittersweet and beautiful; in a way i cannot define.
molecules stumbling. my compass going haywire.
let's drink to the demise of talent.

the light at the end of the tunnel is there. it's dim and far and i can barely make it out, but i know it's there.

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