:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Monday, May 31, 2004 ::

let the madness begin!!! one week down of insane hours at work and my internship...but it feels good. and the summer can truly begin now that the nikster is heading down to the city to be my temporary roommate for the summer! although i've only worked at my internship in which my job is to help place low-income teens in careers and help them prepare for the workforce, i feel fortunate to have this opportunity. it was a bit overwhelming to learn everything the first day i was there, but it is such an eye-opening experience. i found myself getting really attached to certain situations that i had to deal with, and although people have given me the advice to detach myself from some of the kids' problems, i don't think that is the answer. i think feeling empathy toward people, while being able to control your personal emotion is what makes us human. i'm an honest person and my feeling the hardships of another individual and being honest with them helps them to understand that we are there for them. so many of the kids i'm dealing with feel like outsiders, and many have gone (are going) through things most of us cannot conceive of. these are not the people to detach myself from, but i am working on leaving my work at work.

currently: upset that it is 8:00 and hobby lobby is closing because that means i can't start my painting tonight.

stellar lady:: naughti 7:46 PM [+] ::
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when i come across interesting shit i always love to share. if you have not read anything by kurt vonnegut...HERE is a little taste...these are his thoughts on what is going on in the world today...

why does it always seem to rain on memorial day weekends? i don't know if i can even remember a year when it didn't. none the less...i will be going camping over by the mississippi river. good times.

i will be back in the ville respectively next weekend. home sweet home! se echo de menos mis damas stellar.

everything is just groovin' along. in actuality...i got nothing for yas.

just finished: Go Ask Alice
currently reading: A Million Little Pieces
newest book purchase: 'FOUND': the best lost, tossed and forgotten items from around the world. check out the links on the side to get a glimpse. here is my favorite found quote so far...

"By believing passionately in something that still does not exist, we create it. the nonexistent is whatever we have not sufficiently desired."

check out: The Cardigans; Long Gone Before Daylight. remember them? they did that song for romeo and juliet way back? well they are a huge it in europe. and rightfully so. this album is fuckin' good. my current fav is 'And then you kissed me'. getonit.
currently listening to: Death Cab for Cutie; Transatlanticism

And what's strange is that they're all basically the same
So i don't ask names anymore
stellar lady:: Anonymous 9:15 AM [+] ::
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heheh...i'm back...here is a summary of my road trip to south carolina:

-i found out i'm the darkest thing to cross into the kentucky border... and old men will say things like, "well, ain't you the purrtiest thang to walk in hur all night".
-driving through hills in tennessee is a dangerous thing to do at night
-the beach is my home
-the beach at night is the most serene place to be
-hot life guard
-dark whities
-i am a nascar driver...vrrrroooommmm!
-suicide out of a car window is the best way to go
-full body massage...amazing
-getting sick (i must have been mighty attractive blowing my nose on the beach for hours)
-never eat thai chiles......ever!
-Tattas, Peanut, and Gudunk-a-dunk
-cafe with an art gallery
-making pottery
-herbert the turtle
-getting hit on by a nasty guy at the surf store
-getting hit on by a beautiful guy at the other surf store
-"i hope to god i never have to say the piggly-wiggly and the win-dixie in one sentence again"
-i can't hear!!
-no more car rides with people who don't understand good music...this is a nightmare for me
-jumping on beds
-sufers!!!!
-sand in every orphus (ha)
-skirt falling down..what else is new?
-"are ya'll sisters?"
-"what's biggiesizeit?"
-have a peach a day

and we left with sand on our feet and the scent of ocean in our hair
stellar lady:: naughti 9:19 PM [+] ::
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summer has commenced.

and although i am taking summer school, there is something indescribable in the air...that puts me in a state of relaxation. there's no rush anymore. i can just chill out now.

just a brief update.

summer school. a few hours at the shope. working at the House of Funk. come visit me! reading, writing, being outside, studying for the LSAT's. what? me? law school? shiiiiiit. how did that happen?

music on the brain: The Cardigans; For What It's Worth

The four letter word got stuck in my head
the dirtiest word that I've ever said

stellar lady:: Anonymous 1:55 PM [+] ::
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hello
my friends
i have
a challenge for you
ready?
instead of reading
this uninfomative blog
or rather while you are
reading it
how about clicking on
that little icon to the left
reading "drudgereport"
or pick a biased newspaper
of your choice
and educate yourself
on the world
yes, that means
stepping outside
of your important world
to learn about things
that may not directly effect
you
oh, and while you're at it
why don't you form an opinion
of your own
that's all
wouldn't want to overwhelm
you

salaam




stellar lady:: naughti 11:06 PM [+] ::
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miiiiiii amoras.......good luck with this week which will be nothing less than a week in hell......we're almost there ladies!

right now:
i'm hungry and revising a paper i never thought i would have to look at again, or rather prayed i would never have to look at again. my glasses are too weak, my wrist is aching when i type (the outcome of my window getting stuck and me thinking i was superwoman). i have just realized that i write a lot in the passive voice, and i have no idea why or how that came about...hopefully it's just occurring in this paper. i'm getting sentimental about our last newspaper issue....all the writers are so beautifully passionate and wonderful in their own way.... ok that was my rant...lo siento
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i want to hear you sad
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the earth turned to bring us together


stellar lady:: naughti 11:08 AM [+] ::
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