:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Friday, December 13, 2002 ::

A Dichotomy of Doppelganger

well, i'm back home and already into the ruitine of daily life here. back at the flower shop; which can be tiring at time, but its good to see my friends there...definitely not my boss bill tho...he is more of a smelly asshole than ever...his cheap cologne in the morning makes me gag. but i should be havin my raise as a designer which will be needed considering i have major expenses, ie; spain, rent coming up. i will have to make sure though because there have been too many times where important things like raises have been "accidentally" not been mentioned.

this leaves me undecided because i do not know if i want to get a second job at the awesome little cafe not too far from my house. if i do it will not be until after christmas for the hours will be more demand at the shop b/c of xmas time. even if i do apply; i do not know if i would want to be a server. those who know me understand that i lack in the hand-eye-feet coordination aspect. i can forsee many unhappy occurrences...i will have to decide soon though. time is a flying.

speakin of xmas...i have practically no shopping done...this holiday season completely crept up this year.....theres only ____ shopping days left(i really dont know how many are left; i am a) too lazy to do the math and b) relying on the medium of television which is behind me now reminding me that "time is running out")...i suppose i've never really been on top of those kind of things though. something that parallels my procrastination problem.

its funny because i am sort of going through computer/aim withdrawl....i think anyone in college who has access to cable internet will thoroughly agree...i know my roomates do...i believe its been diagnosed at a CTD...a computer transmitted disease...a hardcore distraction...but my computer is still in a box in the den...hopefully tonight it will be up and running...but then i'll only have access to my music cuz we need to get a cord to hook her up to the cable internet...so until then, i'm on my parents computer...which is slower than fuck and has forced me to use even more profanity than the excessive amount that comes out of my mouth...so i wont be up and running on the AIM and the email responses will not be as consistent...so fans; please have patience.

all my shit is in plastic bags and is either sitting in the middle of my living room or my bedroom...my goal has been to get my shit together and unpack...but that wont happen...i'll be livin out of plastic bags till probably after new years...some of it will probably still be there when i leave for spain. speaking of new years...gotta figure out my plans for that...i love to get sentimental and shit and think about where i was a year ago and how much things have changed and how much i've grown/learned....yeah, the average reader of this will be like "ha, how sappy and after-school special sounding"...but its true...if you dont have time to look in retrospect and analyze and learn...you gain nothing...reflecting is one of the best tools in bettering your situation...

thats all for now. my ma is making pasta fagioli....mmmm home cookin...and the best part is its free!

"you think i'm just some asshole in the mix."
"i dont use the term, 'in the mix'."
stellar lady:: Anonymous 5:54 PM [+] ::
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