:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Friday, August 02, 2002 ::

there are good people out there

with all the angry people in the world, i sometimes wonder where the genuinely good people are. well, sometimes i need a great big reality check .....one woman that i have known for about 13 years is the person i refer back to when i begin to think all people have gone mad. she is 89 years old and her name is mrs. moore. she is the strongest and most selfless person i have ever met and i'm sorry for the many days i have taken her for granted. i usually see her every other friday and sometimes on mondays....but today i'm sorry to say i went to visit her because she is sick. through every story she tells me about her life i realize how beautiful her heart is and how she just keeps giving even when she doesn't think she has the strength to. she cared for her husband who had cancer and passed away about 6 years ago and she took care of her sister who had alzheimers. i don't care how strong you think you are, nothing can prepare you for the long and sad death of a person you love with either of those diseases. i keep forcing the thought out of my mind that she may be getting closer to dying, but as i sat on her couch and she rubbed my arm as she talked, the thought was inevitable. i'm not one to be afraid of death but to feel that someone close to you is going to die is the saddest feeling i've ever known. she did say she felt better than last week and hopefully she will recover fully in the next week. i try to make it a habit to tell her how much she means to me, along with the other people i love in life, because i know life is fragile. it's so hard not to take people for granted, as we often do, instead we should spend time with people as though it is our last time together....because the reality is it just may be....
stellar lady:: naughti 8:27 PM [+] ::
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