:: Idle Neurosis ::

:: Saturday, August 03, 2002 ::

its funny because no matter how well you think you know a person, it can turn out that you never really knew them at all.
i question his intentions of the past 8 months, i question everything.
my heart hurts, and i'm choking my tears back with my teeth.
i made a promise to myself that i would not be deceived, that i wouldnt fall for bullshit and lies.
but i did, foolishly. i failed to see through it. fortunately though, i did not fall extremely hard. its good to have friends who look out for me.
sometimes you get caught up and dont even realize that you're comprimising your values and accommodating your standards to try and make it work.
i'm through with that now, through with him pretending to be someone he's not.
i can honestly say i regret nothing. he will find the error in his way, and soon realize he fucked up his chances and one of the few good things he had going in his life.
i'm mad at myself, but the wound will heal and i have learned things for next time around.
its on him. when he turns around and and sees i'm gone, it will be his jaw limp with contemplation.

"a kiss blown at oblivion.
realize your universal porportions,
feel what its like to be tiny and rootless.
squander your minutes as
Time mocks your quiet fear,
laughs at your pigeon-step approach,
and sneers at your impotant indecision.
forget your troubles,
try a new life.
open up possibilities,
find a new lease on living.
hindsight is 20/20,
but in life,
there are second chances."
-excerpt from white teeth

kazaa: sensefield
albums soon to purchase: sensefield, reel big fish

i'm letting go & moving on. and now you dont have to give up anything.
i was wrong about you, so very wrong.....

dont call me; i wont know how you are


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